I'm afraid of war

Today, I saw in a video that Saeed Jalili said: "Some people scare Iran from war."
And then he explained that the great powers have come with all their might to fight the small group of Hamas, but they have not been able to do anything wrong.
And then he said again: "Are some people scaring our nation from war?"
Mr. Jalili, do you know about the life of the people of Gaza?

These words reminded me of one of my notes a few years ago, which you will read below;
When I was younger, I was not afraid of war and I was even eager for war to form again. The literature of the sacred defense of war had created a beautiful picture for me; A painting full of spirituality, humanity, purity and brotherhood on a path that ends in heaven. In this literature, instead of war, the term holy defense is used; Because "the word defense lacks the clarity and violence and brutality of war."

Later, when my childhood questions led me to do more research on war and I got to know the darkness, destruction and bitterness of war, I realized that "one of the basic characteristics of literature is to hide secrets that may never be revealed."
I saw how the costly and damaging operations were fixed in my mind like great victories and I realized that this literature has new words and combinations and different meanings; "For example, in the literature of sacred defense, defeat and compromise do not exist and have no reason."

After I pursued specialized studies in the field of war, I found out how much contradictory and wrong information there is in the literature books of holy defense, and it was later that I understood that "the task of literature is to present and express emotional states and qualities... Literature has nothing to do with reality." And truth and lies are meaningless in it. Literature does not want to be a reporter of events, true or false or true and false, this is the difference between science and literature."

Gradually, the war became one of the most terrifying events for me, and I realized that my not being afraid of the war was the product of my emotions; "When the emotions arising from the semi-conscious and conscious consciousness enter through one door, the conscious thought and wisdom leave through another door." I saw how unreasonable it was to be eager for another war and that "literature can make unreasonable everything that seems reasonable, go beyond it, transform it in such a way as to threaten its legitimacy and adequacy."

The sacred defense literature narrated the bravery and praiseworthy battle of the beloved Iranian fighters in the Persian Gulf with the Americans in the final years of the war but did not say much about the hundreds of millions of dollars of damage caused by the Americans' retaliatory operations in the destruction of Iran's oil platforms.

One feels disillusioned by some shortcomings and strange mistakes during the war years, but literary works show some unattainable dreams as achieved and "removes the disappointments resulting from objective historical experiences" and "helps relieve the pain by numbing the nerves of consciousness." " And the dominance of literary knowledge gradually "negates the necessity and importance of intelligent knowledge about the various aspects of this phenomenon and its nature, and blocks its path or makes it seem unreasonable and impossible."

Now these days I am completely afraid of war; Even if the end is victory, because this victory is at the cost of sacrificing and destroying many lives that may never be restored. But I know that many still understand the sacred defense of war through the lens of this literature and are eager for war.

- The meaning of literature in this note is the literature that is often known as the literature of holy defense in Iran.

- The sentences in quotation marks come from the book "Sustainability Framework" written by Professor Alireza Kameri.

- See the full text of this note that I wrote 5 years ago in the seized book of historical notes. You can download the file of historical notes from the pinned message in the channel.

Jafar Shir Ali Nia